A Thought On Audience

In my first #nerdlution goal, I set out to write publicly via this blog, every day for 50 days. I found that knowing it was “out there” for others to read and respond to really inspired me to get it done and pushed me in ways I couldn’t have predicted.

I’m in the middle of week three of my second #nerdlution goal—playing my trumpet every day—and I’m finding that I’m more lax with getting it done. I think I’ve only missed three days out of 17, but still, I’m less inspired and I think it has to do with a lack of audience. There’s also the fact that (for me) it’s a harder and more personal goal than writing.

I’m thinking that I may need to start posting audio of me playing each week to inspire me (or kick my ass). I’m fighting my need to be at a certain level and caring what others may think—how they’ll judge my abilities. But that piece of being vulnerable to an audience that I liked with writing “out loud” may be what’s missing. Ultimately I have to learn that my opinion of myself is the only one that matters, and I might as well share some music along the way.